The story you tell yourself about your husband and why he does the things he does can often determine your ability to work through a problem effectively or exaggerate things beyond reality creating a new set of problems.Never lose hope. Stay close to Allah and when you mess up, go back to Him. Never, ever stop going back to Him. Repent often. Cry to Allah. And hold on tight-with your life-to His remembrance and to prayer. If you do this, you may get wet, but insha Allah never drown in this ocean of dunya.